A letter for my naive…

Dear naive:

As my age is increasing, I own less of you. I want to make an apology to you but not for forgiving. When I was in kindergarten, you made me trust everyone. I didn’t know how dark and despicable the world was. I smiled even before the storm. One time, I played with my cousin. We rode the bikes on the 2^nd floor. After a while, he rode on the stairs and had a rest downstairs. He said: “Come here, I will protect you.” I believed him and then was sent to the hospital. I cried because of the pain on my body and my heart as well. You went away with my tears. In my opinion, you are the enemy of experiences. After my 15^th birthday, I came to Canada with my dream and ambition. I still kept you in the corner of my heart. However, they changed me and asked me to get rid of you. Who are they? You will never believe that they were my best friends. I am not good at making friends so when I have a friend, I will sacrifice whatever I have to make them happy and never ask for returns. The reason is I had you—naive, I trusted them. When they laughed at me even commended me, I couldn’t afford it. I didn’t cry this time because they didn’t deserve it or maybe I was not the kid who cried for his mum going to the supermarket by herself. That is the process how I lose you more and more. I apologize to you doesn’t mean that I regret. Everyone needs to choose between naive and armors for their heart. If you trust someone you don’t know well, the percentage of hurting yourself will be very high. I cannot afford another hurt like I had in the first November I spent in Canada. As a result, I decided to wear a very heavy armor from then on. Maybe I am wrong to throw you away and trust only a few people, but this is the only way to let you return after I cure these scars on my heart. Please wait for me, naive!

                                                                                   Sincerely,

                                                                                   Mao Zhengquan (Darius)  

      

This is a song named 'Naive' in Chinese. It is one of my favorite songs.